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imnotamonster) wrote2012-04-14 11:52 pm
imnotamonster) wrote2012-04-14 11:52 pm
I am a monster
I know Bev hates me for what I did. I hate me for what I did. I've never felt quite so disgusted with myself before. I hunt and kill as a werewolf because I must, but to have so few morals left I attacked my friends? I'm not sure I can live with myself anymore.
Bev's not with us anymore. He left me with Roy and Trevor and Ace's pathetic grave, and I can't even bear to look them in the eye and apologise. What good would an apology do anyway? I cursed them both. I sent Ace to his grave. The only reason they stay is because they have nowhere else to go.
Bev always told me being a lone wolf is hard. He's right. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to endure. I'm still living with what I did, and how I could possibly have allowed myself to do that. I've spent so many nights soul searching, hoping to find some answer as to why I did that. Why I cursed my friends.
They attack me every full moon. We heal fast, so it's never life-threatening. I think one day I'm just going to lie back and let them kill me. Their justice, their punishment, is the only thing I deserve.
Bev's not with us anymore. He left me with Roy and Trevor and Ace's pathetic grave, and I can't even bear to look them in the eye and apologise. What good would an apology do anyway? I cursed them both. I sent Ace to his grave. The only reason they stay is because they have nowhere else to go.
Bev always told me being a lone wolf is hard. He's right. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to endure. I'm still living with what I did, and how I could possibly have allowed myself to do that. I've spent so many nights soul searching, hoping to find some answer as to why I did that. Why I cursed my friends.
They attack me every full moon. We heal fast, so it's never life-threatening. I think one day I'm just going to lie back and let them kill me. Their justice, their punishment, is the only thing I deserve.